if you really want to succeed Alex, you must believe in yourself. so you’re saying… I don’t? you’re not you and you know it. well I used to but without that knowledge it seems… like I'm becoming him. is it crucifying? seems that way god. .. . . why can’t you solve that problem? it takes work? just make sure you know who’s doing “the work” which also got somebody raped nobody knows what happened to every word of those books…